Anonymous: I love you and I miss you. I want to go back to when I'd practically live at your house. You are the most amazing person I know and the only one I can trust at the moment. I can't wait for next weekend.! I love you my dear best friend. SO much. You are so selfless and have been there by my side for many years. Ten years to be exact. I would never let you down or give you up, that's a promise.
Anonymous: I'm sorry for lying to you for so long and I know you'll continue to be mad at me for a long time. I made things right now though. You'll see.
Anonymous: I am also sorry to you for the same reasons. That wasn't me. I love you.
Anonymous: I never really believed you anyway. I'm was not as disappointed in you because I simply didn't expect much in the first place. You say what you think I want to hear. When will you realize the only thing I ever want, is truth? I thought maybe you saw life the way I did. Believed right along side with me. False. I no longer want to associate with you.
Anonymous: You are one of the ONLY people who was completely honest. I respect you for that, I do. I know we are at an awkward place but you see, I'm happy where we stand. In a way we're like the same person. So seeing you get past it gives me the strength I NEED to get past it as well. I would get thoroughly frustrated when you told me things were my fault and I didn't listen. But look, you were right. I'll find a way to thank you, some day.
Anonymous: I am so disappointed in you. I just can't even comprehend where your heart even is anymore. You acted the way you thought I wanted you to, just to win me over then when I only offered friendship you backed down. Why? Why do you insist on winning my attention in the worst of ways? I don't know what you've been thinking. I will never trust you but, I'll be here for you.
Anonymous: You're not really a person but you are the only reason I made it this long. I have no strength alone and I am sorry for straying so far. My heart was so heavy with the disappointment that you felt in me and I was aware of this so I pushed you aside. I realize that things happened this way all because of me. I am sorry and I will fight for you back. Number one in my life.
Anonymous: I wonder about you often. I wonder if you even want to listen to me. I wonder if I bore you. I just don't want to trust you in case you do leave. You're a great person but I won't be letting my guard down anytime soon.
Anonymous: I am sorry for the way I have been treating you. I have been completely honest though.
Anonymous: You, I have so much to say but nothing I am ready to say. I finally won. I fought and fought and you let her tear me down without a single hint of hesitation. I did everything for you and now I realize some things. You can be happy now. You lost me but it's okay. You got who you wanted and now you can live the way you wanted to. I'm sorry for trying to show you the way I am. I'm sorry for ever trusting you. I am sorry for making you number one in my life. Remember that day when we were walking home on the dirt road at night and I flipped out and then when we got to my house I told you that you could never be first in my life, you asked why and I told you that God would take you away if you ever started to replace him. Now I see that I was right. I was. That's why this isn't your fault. I'm the one who made the mistake of making you everything. I was dumb, but hey, I was gullible. I'm smarter now, you see. I found happiness in knowing you can no longer hurt me from so far away. I am proud to say no, I never did love you. I loved the boy with the beautiful heart I thought you were. I have faith that one day you will treat someone with respect. I know that person won't be me. But I promise you'll never forget me. This is my goodbye to you. The real you that I recently discovered. It's a happy goodbye because now I have forgiven myself and have learned that I made as many mistakes as you did, if not more.
Myself: I finally forgive you. Sometimes I get mad, sometimes I hate you. The only thing that gives me hope is knowing that you have changed and now doing the right thing is what drives you. It is good that you aren't trying to move on. You need to accept that being alone right now is the best thing for you. You have the people you need but most of all, you have God. One day I will be proud of you, but that won't be for a long time. You still have a lot to prove. Better get to work.
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