Hell.

I can honestly say I have hit rock bottom. The veeery deep rocky bottom. It hurt and the fall itself was horrid. But here I am, Kristen Jackson; still alive and kicking. Barely anyway. I first have to get this off my chest.

Everyone has good in their heart.. somewhere.

But you, you are a different kind of person.

You build me up to break me down.

It takes a special kinda person to do what you did.

But I forgive you, that's what matters.

I am currently just struggling to forgive myself. Because THAT is when things will look up. I'm going to try. I made mistakes and I'm so sorry.

I'm making my life an open book, so then I figure some lost girl will read this and be able to learn from me instead of having to go through this on her own. Friends are so important and I now know who will stick by my side when I can no longer have strength. In all reality though, God is what is keeping my head up. My best friend reminded me that last time, years ago, when I hit rock bottom I didn't have God as much as I do now, and that's what's going to get me through this time.