Everything just really sucks right now. Working a full time job and going to school full time. I feel as though I get no respect. Every single day is more of a constant struggle than anything else. I'm always so tired but yet there is always so much expected from me. For once I would like someone to be proud of me. I would like to be rewarded for how hard I work. I don't want to have to ask if you're proud of me. So stop being so mean to me and for five seconds can you see how hard I work and cut me some slack. Truth is, I'm done with my life. You make me miserable. I hope your happy that you officially pushed me away. I'm so far done with you. My plan is to work as hard ad I can to keep you off my back for the next few months, then I'm going to get a car then I won't even need you. I'll just disappear.

I need a place to rant. I get sad like everyone else.. it still haunts me.. I am glad there's one place left..

UHM

HAVE YOU BOUGHT MY SINGLE.

Because... it is now on iTunes... yeah (:

Sometimes, life sucks.
I made a friend last night.

Truth is..

I am in lurve with Cadence Groovenstein (Cady Groves)

If you are a part of my familia, good friend, or a random stranger, you most likely are aware of my obsession for this chick. She retweeted me and I, no joke, screamed/cried for a good hour. (: Just wait 'til
you see the shirt....

I recently ordered this necklace from etsy. The lady I bought it from was seriously extremely nice and the delivery was SO quick and she sent me a little surprise gift. I HIGHLY recommend ordering from her. Clicky!

This is her post mentioning my necklace ♥

Hello, Sunshine!

Welcome back..
As you may have noticed, my blog is back to my old URL.
It just seems better this way.. more fitting.
Well, I'm back to blogging..
(:

Welp,

I'm back (:






The first memory I have of posting on my little blog was one year ago today,
on my birthday.
So I just kinda decided in my head that today would be my blog's first birthday.

Sooo,

Happy Birthday blog!!!!!
(: We've been through so much!


Oh yeah, I'm seventeen today.
I feel old (:

Welp

I am sad.
I am hurt.


I am disgusted. That's all I can really even think to say.
I have never been so disappointed.


I gave up posting,
Monday was the worst day of my life.
The absolute worst.

Maybe I'll post later,
in a few weeks or something.
..


I'm just.. done.

SUMMER FEVER

I'm BACCCKK. 

Finally, (:

So, here we go..

1. I wrote ANOTHER song.

2. I learned Hallelujah.

3. I WANT SUMMER.

4. I am happy.

5. My blog is almost a year old.

6. I got asked to prom, where I will be wearing my special vintage prom dress...

7. I painted my nails silver.

8. I'm so thankful.

9. I WANT SUMMER.

Open me up and you will see.

I'm a gallery of broken hearts.

Day 2

Samantha Lucille Scheffe.
I have been closest with her the longest,
known her for 10 years (Same second grade class)
Best friends for 5 years.

I tell her everything, and then some.
I trust her and love her more than is even possible.

I never tell you enough how important you are to me,
or how truly blessed and thankful I am.
I wouldn't be who I am today if it weren't for you helping me every step of the way.

You are my fellow crazy Christian,
and for the first time, we are happy at the SAME time
this is a miracle..


I love you.
So much.


I will always be here.

Day 1!

I am crazy.

I am allergic to every perfume until my body adjusts.

I don't like milk.

I wish I could be a vegetarian, but I always get too sick.

I have 6 dogs, and a cat that no one likes.

I'm not a big reader, but I LOVE the book Hunger Games

I love hanging out with my frans' but I get homesick.

I looove staying up late and watching movies by myself.

I hate painting my nails red because I think it looks trashy when it chips.

I only wear black socks.

(Except for my pair that is pink with black mustaches)

♥

LOLOLOL, I wanted to do less cliche facts, which is why they're so random.

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show
Day 04 - A picture of your night
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory
Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most crazy things with
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate
Day 12 - A picture of something you love
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity
Day 19 - A picture and a letter
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change
Day 25 - A picture of your day
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss

I want cookies.

I know what I want.

To be something special.

I'm Free,

I'm free of all the chains that held me down.
I'm free of all the memories that would haunt me.
I'm free of all the lies and deceit.
I'm free of the hurtful words.
I'm free of all the pain.
Because I can't be hurt anymore.

♥

My blog feels different now.
I have a sense of security in the fact that I know I will not have to log on, only to see hurtful comments left by bitter hearts.. I'm so relieved.


Today is horrifying, and I'm only in second period.
I just want to tell you that I am so incredibly sorry,
I have learned my lesson, and I meant it when I promised that it wouldn't happen again..

It brought back the worst of memories and I could feel my heart ache a little..
I hate that feeling.
I hate feeling like, I'm falling back into that dark, dark place..

But I'm not.

I love God.
No one can take that from me.
He is all I have.
He is all I trust.
In all actuality, He is all I will ever need.

I'm changing my URL

You can't try and hurt me,
if we have no contact whatsoever.

P.S. You'll never win.
I'm stronger now.

And I can promise, this will be the last post of mine you will read..

Make You Feel My Love- Cover

Today.

My dear friend, Miss Alyssa came over today and got ready for the dance with me. She's suuuch a sweet girl. So we got ready then took off to go get muh mann, then we went to Walmart, because that's where cool kids go. That is where this picture was taken..

We put on the self timer and a lady with a cart walked by, so we awkwardly smiled.. hence the looks on our faces.. LAWL.

Alyssa snapped this cute lil' picture, even though it's blurry, I adore it.

But THIS picture is my favorite. It explains us. Being weird as a lady goes by staring at us. It was an amazing, weird night. Alyssa got sick, which sucked. But I'm so happy with the way things turned out. We go well together, kid. Ruuul' well. ♥ 

He's hopefully coming over tomorrow. (:

Truth is..

I realllly adore you.

You are the sweetest person I have ever met.

You NEVER cease to amaze me.

Every single thing I've been looking for...

Best boyfriend ever..

3.1.11 ♥

Long Live.

Today, I played songs for my first hour class.
Singing in front of others used to horrify to no extent.
But now, it's so different.
I feel empowered and happpy..

I just want to be something,
I just want to be noticed.
I just want to be more.

I will do whatever it takes.

Anything, for the long of music.

One day, it'll be my CD on the store shelves..

Hey now

Today was pretty cute.
There's this boy, and he wrote me a song.
And played it for me today.

The moral of the story is that thanks to that lil' song,
I got me a pretty nifty boyfriend today.

And I totally adore him.
3.1.11 ♥



I'm looking forward to plenty more cute days with you,
J.M.R.H.S.M.
(and yes, he really does have that many initials..)

Welp

Morp on Saturday. ♥

Annnnd I'm learning 'Make You Feel My Love' on guitar..
My fingers are gross from guitar..
which is why guitar players should only date OTHER guitar players,
because they don't mind the callused fingers.. LAWL
That's gross but it's true. (:

I'm too crazy for my own good.

I wrote a lil' song for you,

I'll play it tomorrow.

(;

(:

Rivers Of Babylon

Best Day.

Thank you God, for all my beautiful days,
and my amazing friends.
♥

I'll put pictures up later with a pretty hi-larious story.

And Linette,
Thank you for reading my blog and always being super sweet to me.
You are so adorable (:
You make history such a fun class.
And I love the music you show me on your Ipod.

It's

Amazing how much it helps to talk about everything.
It feels so sweet to have someone reassure me.
I love how we both understand how important communication is..

I couldn't be more excited about the future.
I couldn't be more excited for our future.

"What do you say to taking chances? What do you say to jumping off the edge.
Never knowing if there's solid ground below, or hand to hold or hell to pay..
What do you say?"

I'm down (:

BAHAHA

I'm just reeeaaaaal stupid.







):

My music is going somewhere.

Thank you God.

Honesty Time

I feel like my fears are being exposed again.
I don't like to get close to people because I'm scared
they'll let me down.

I'm scared that we talk so much because I don't want to find out a bunch of stuff I don't like
then have our friendship be different.

I don't wanna feel differently about you than I do right now.

I'm scared of people I think,
I'm scared of putting any hope in anyone..

Everything is amazing.
♥
I'll do a rant post later.
I guess I'm gonna be co-writing soon..
KJGKSVGUKFL AHH!

Laugh at yourself.

I'm pretty funny (:

Today was pretty fracken cute.

(:

OOO boy

"Ooo boy would ya mind if I got closer?
Ooo boy, I can tell you want me don't cha?
How would ya feel if I told ya,
'You ain't worth the trouble'"

I FINALLY found someone to do music with.
Consider me PUMPED.

We start working together tomorrow.
(:

Maybe we'll be recording soon...
Oh and Cady Groves has taken over my life.
I adore that girl,
HUGE inspiration.

T-Swift In Da Hood!

For those of you who obviously DON'T know me,
I love her now.
(:


She's a genius.
And I was wrong.

Our Song- Cover

What makes you happy?


Today I was feeling down.
So I decided to ask and see what made other people happy.
It was so amazing how you can tell what kind of person they are by there answer..

Some didn't reply at all.
Some asked why I wanted to know.
Some wouldn't tell me..

But the answers that I did get, fascinated me.
I'll tell you what I thought...

#1. "Animals. Taking care of them, playing with them, helping them."
I think this person is a very caring person with the instinct to take care of things. She is indeed a very selfless person.

#2. "The Sun."
Her answer shows that she likes the security of something that will never fail her.

#3. "Seeing other people smile. Or when I'm with my friends."
This person's answer shows that she is a people-person. Very social and very funny.

#4. "Good weather. Happy music. Olive Garden. Singing."
This answer shows that they can appreciate the simple joys in life.

#5. "Knowing that I have people that love me, and knowing I can do something for myself and not cause of someone else."
This answer shows how independent this person is, while still needing some stability.

#6. "Every day stuff. Seeing you. Seeing my family not fussing over little things, just trying to be happy."
Hah, obviously this person is close to me, but their answer shows that they have an important relationship with their family and want to see them happy. This person's happiness is based on other people's happiness.

#7. "Knowing I have true friends makes me happy. Knowing I will always have someone there when I need them most."
Loyalty is happiness to this person.

#8. "God, Trusting in him and knowing that he's in my life and everything's going to be okay."
Happiness is faith to this person. Their answer shows that they find happiness in things that are not in this world. They trust in something much bigger than people or objects.

#9. "Other people's happiness."
Another selfless person.

#10. "My output on life makes me happy. If things don't go as planned, then that's okay, maybe it was supposed to happen like that. Friends can contribute sometimes, too. But mainly its how I want the day to be. If I want to have a good day, I'll write good things, maybe tap songs with my pencil, and think positive. On the other hand if I want a bad day to myself, I'll e down or cuss a lot or just keep to myself. But it's just me, that makes me happy."
This person's happiness seems to be built on themself. Not in a bad way. They just seemed like they couldn't give a simple answer of what made them happy. But I feel like maybe their happiness was built on their emotions day by day.


All of these answers are very good.
There really isn't any wrong answer.
Keep in mind these are strictly just my personal thoughts on others statements.

What makes you happy?

6 Months

Yayayyaa

I'm happy today.
License test tomorrow...
I suck at driving but, we'll see.

I got a HD Flip Video for Valentine's day so I can post video's!
I'm super excited.
I'm going to be learning a BUNCH of songs.!

AND, half days Thursday and Friday.
This weekend is still undecided.
And I'm almost done with Catching Fire.



P.S. My room is a mess.
Not enough time in day, right.
I literally played my guuiiiitttaar for hours.
I got the blisters to prove it.

Here are some good pictures.
(:

I found this in my phone and laughed

This was taken at the top of a tree. (:

!

Happy S.A.D. :(:
(Single Awareness Day)

Today is a good day.
I realize that it is not about anything but love.
I am single.
However, I have more to love than most.

I love my best friend.With my whole heart.(Samuel)
I love my Mom.(Ladyhood)
I love my Dad.(Papi)
I love Diaundra.(Sisterhood)
I love Bradley.
I love Marcy.(Bonusmom)
I love Jim. (SlimJim)
I love Lily.(lilrim)
I love Aimee.(fullmoon)
I love Sarah.(twinner)
I love Julia. (huliiaa)
I love all my grandparents, and cousins, and aunts and uncles.
I love Jesus Christ, My savior.
I love yellow.
I love sushi.
I love Vitamin Water.
I love tea.
I love Converse.
I love sun.
I love rain.
I love wind.
I love school.
I love laughing.
I love Olive Garden.
I love Rousette.
I love Cessna.
I love Poweder.
I love Hannah.
I love Lucy.
I love Chaz.
I love rainbows.
I love driving.
I love my classmates.
I love music, in all forms.
I love my guitar.
I love singing.
I love dresses.
I love make-up.
I love wearing natural hair.
I love painting each nail a different color.
I love clouds.
I love fresh grass.


It's pretty safe to say.
I'm in love with life.

VID00002

Oh Kristen and Her Punctuation..

Today was great.

Meeting tomorrow..

I finished my essay early..

I'm cleaning for a good cause..

I wanna donate blood...

(If I'm moving back to my old neighborhood I'm going to die.)

Muuuzzaac

I saw you walking in the street.
"Don't look this way love please.
Just let my heart,
let it go.
It took me back to that day,
You turned and walked away.
and said, "it's suppose to be this way."
I'd be okay,
because it was all the same.
I guess our story is ending here.
My pen can only write your name your filling every page.
So fast, that we both died away.
It's not suppose to be this way,
I'm so far from okay.
If it's all the same,
then it's just you that's okay."

♥

Welp,

You'll be seeing this girl at the talent show.. (:
March 10th be there or be square.

When I don't move my arm for a while, it feels unattached to my body. lolol.

Are you ready?

1. I like mustaches..

2. My favorite color is yellow.

3. I love all kinds of tea.. except hot tea..

4. I looove sushi.

5. The sun makes me happy.

6. I like indie/folk music.

7. I paint my nails a new color every other day.

8. I love being cold which is good cause I'm cold 24/7

9. I don't sleep much.

10. I love Jesus.

Person I've been closest to the longest.

Cast to my favorite show ever.

Favorite memories.